Monday, May 26, 2008

The Best Summer Ever

So here is one of the videos that we put together for last year's New Wilmington Mission Conference that kind of got lost in the fray and never made it online.

Now it is back, doing double duty as an ad for this years Conference. Since then, the Imogen Heap song that we used has become a bit overused in certain circles, but I still like it.

Enjoy.



http://youtube.com/watch?v=TAcFqirIkCI

Sunday, May 25, 2008

I Do Believe; Help Me Overcome My Unbelief

Here is a letter that I wrote for the students in my youth group that are graduating this year:

Mark 9:24b
"I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!"

This verse is one of those that has stuck with me for a while. It is one of those weird phrases in the Bible that doesn’t seem to make much sense, so we often just skip right over it. The two phrases seem to contradict one another. If the guy believes, then how does he have “unbelief”? And yet, I have come to realize that this one verse make a whole lot more sense the longer I looked at it.

One of the biggest struggles when I got to college was that it was the first time that I really began to understand that I had a real sense of independence, both personally and intellectually, from my parents. I was now the one who decided how late I could stay out on the weekends, how clean I was going to keep my room, and how much time I spent playing video games. I also realized that I was beginning to learn things in class that my parents didn’t know. I was starting to realize things that I had never been taught at home or in high school, and it was really liberating. I began to see that knowledge was so much bigger than what I had been shown up to that point.

Another big change was that I had complete say over whether or not I was going to go to church or not, and given the choices between church and sleep, I invariably chose sleep. In a lot of ways, my faith was still tied to that old, small knowledge that I had been taught when I was in high school, the one that I was now growing out of. I was starting to realize that my faith understanding of God was rather shallow, and didn’t hold up to too much scrutiny, so I just opted to not think about it that deeply, to store it away to be pulled out occasionally, but not something that had much relevance in my every day life. Most of the classes that I was taking seemed to make perfect sense without the need to bring faith into it, and some of them seemed to work even better without it.

I came to realize, though, largely through a class that I took called “Understanding the Bible” (which should have been called, “Understanding How Hard it is to Really Understand the Bible”) that my faith wasn’t obsolete, it was just undeveloped. Just as we don’t stop growing or learning once we hit high school, our faith isn’t something that is finite or static. It’s not black and white. Instead it’s something that we need to keep working on, keep growing in our understanding of it. That’s when this verse really started to take shape for me. Belief and unbelief aren’t two opposites. We too often view these as separate poles, that you either believe or you don’t, but that’s simply not the case. For a while, all I knew was that I believed in Jesus, that he was a real guy who lived and breathed, and that he dies on a cross. I wasn’t so sure that I believed in God. I had belief, but I also had unbelief. Eventually, I came to terms with the belief I had that Jesus was raised from the dead, that he was God’s son. If Jesus was God’s son, then there had to be a God. This is admittedly a rather backwards way to get to God, but it was what got me there, for me personally. You may have to go a completely different way. Maybe you can accept that the universe was created, but you can’t move beyond that yet. You have belief and unbelief.

This verse from Mark becomes a very simple prayer, but one that never stops being relevant. The man in the story is directly appealing to Jesus, saying that he does believe in Jesus, but he also recognizes that he has doubts, that there are still areas that he needs to grow in, to believe in more, to have greater faith.
I heard faith described once as “belief in things that we cannot prove.” I’m not sure that this is a very good definition, as many would argue that there is a lot about faith that we can “prove” more or less. I would instead say that faith is “belief that we put into action.” It is belief that dictates how we live our lives. When you get onto an airplane, you have faith that this huge piece of metal will be able to fly through the air, and then land safely somewhere else. You are putting your complete trust in something that, when you really think about it, very few of us can even begin to understand. In many ways, logic would tell us that a plane cannot fly, or at least is more than likely bound to crash, so the more rational thing to do would be to stay away from planes, or even cars for that matter. Yet we have faith enough to put our trust in them in an active way.

Having belief without faith is like saying that you believe a plane can fly, but never being willing enough to get on one. If you are living your life with a belief in God, but are not willing to live that believe in such a way that it actually influences how you live, you don’t really have much faith. If you have belief in anything without faith, then its fairly pointless. Moreover, to believe that there is no god, to be atheistic, requires as much faith as saying that there is not. Both require us to rely on things that we may not fully understand, to trust in things that people tell us that we cannot completely explain or comprehend on our own. One view is not really any more “rational” than the other. In fact, atheism requires you to deny far more than theism (belief in God) does.

But back to this notion of belief and unbelief: You are on the verge of something big. You are about to be exposed to knowledge that will change how you view your entire life, and how you view those around you. Your whole understanding of belief and unbelief are about to change. My hope for you is that the learning that you have in college is something that enables you to grow in your belief in God, and that this belief can lead you to a truer faith in God.

There is nothing wrong with unbelief. It is when we pretend that it is not there, or when we start to think that belief or unbelief cannot co-exist that we struggle.

So, I pray for you that you do believe, however small that belief may be, but even more so, I pray that you let God to help you overcome your unbelief.

Grace and peace,
Tyler

Thursday, May 22, 2008

If I Could Talk with the Animals...


Recently, I have been reflecting a lot on how absurd it is that we keep animals as pets. I don't mean to say that it is wrong, I am a strong advocate of having pets, and find it confusing when people don't have them. It is rather silly though. Especially as we have deemed certain animals, like dogs and cats, as acceptable to be in the house, and others, like raccoons and snakes, as varmints that should be chased away from the house.

Perhaps this is more telling to me as we have two pet snakes.

We also have three cats, in a rather small house. Not too small, but small enough that when I am home during the day, most of the time, all three cats are in the same room as I am. They spend about 92% of their day sleeping, and when they sleep, it looks like the most comfortable and restful sleep imaginable. On the days when I had multiple papers to work on during the day, I would sit there and see the cats all cozy, without a care in the world, and hate them. Stupid cats.

Most other times, they give me a lot of amusing things to watch. For instance, right now, Schroeder (the one who never makes any noise), has just jumped up on the window perch where Truman (the big one who has a really high meow) is sleeping. Schroeder sat on Truman's head, and hilarity ensued.

It's interesting that we have pets. As I say, I'm very pro-pet, but we end up having these relationships with animals that are very interesting, almost like they are people. I have been alone in the house since 6 this morning, yet I don't feel alone, and I have probably talked out loud in a conversational manner with one or more of the cats at least half a dozen times already.

But maybe I'm weird. We do have three cats and two snakes, after all.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

An open letter to Entertainment Weekly...

A few years back, I sent a letter to Entertainment Weekly about how dumb Halle Berry's post-Oscar movie choices were, and they printed it.

They have now given me another reason to write them, which I now present to you. Let's see if they print this.

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Dear EW,

Holy crap. Enough with Sex in the City! You advertise 63 pages of "Sex" on the cover, but my math skills tell me that from page 22 to page 99 makes it closer to 77. This is an unprecedented amount of coverage for a movie that is clearly only going to appeal to a certain percentage of your readership. To put this into perspective, you recent issue featuring the new Indiana Jones movie, a cultural phenomenon and guaranteed block buster whether it is actually good or not, garnered only 8 pages! What?!? And the last kick in the face was that this "Sex in the City" issue is somehow a "double issue"! So not only have you given me an issue filled to the brim with something that I and many other readers will have no interest in, we will go another week EW-less. Your better than that, EW.
Hopefully you have gotten Carrie Bradshaw out of your system now.

If you are struggling for more things to talk about, here are some options:
- the upcoming Lost finale
- The recent finale of The Office
- A look at the legs of Iron Man/the faltering of Speed Racer
- More than a brief mention about this rumored Donnie Darko sequel
- Ricky Gervais' star studded new project
- Anything else.

That is more on par with what I expect from EW. Please resume being an awesome magazine.

Thank you,

Tyler Domske

Losing my grip...

I'm slowly slipping into an every other day pattern. Must rectify that.

So A & I are now less than a month away from the big move to North Carolina, and yet we don't have a house. Mah. We found two that were great, but both of them were bought by others on the eve of our preparing an offer. Mah! So yet again, we will be renting for a few months. The upside of this, though, is that we will be able to take our time to find the right house once we get there. We just need to first find a place to rent that will take three cats and two snakes (and two people).

Aside from this snag, though, I think that we are both really excited about the move. It will be nice to get started. The one thing that will be a lot different about this move is that we will be actually moving into a pre-existing community, one that is ready to take us in and is excited about us coming. I think that it will feel like home a lot sooner rather than later.

At any rate, we still have a until the week between June 8 and June 15. In the mean time, I'm planning out out last Youth Group in Dubuque (giant Amazing Race type scavenger hunt around Dubuque), and to work on videos for NWMC. Somewhere in there, I may have to try to get to "hard" on Guitar Hero and do some more work on Kingdom Hearts.

Monday, May 19, 2008

What are you looking at?

As I mentioned a few days ago, I preached today, my last sermon at St. Luke's (though I only preached there a handful of times. Here is a truncated version of how it turne d out, complete with the scripture passages used:
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Matthew 28:16-20 (New International Version)
Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore,go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Acts 1:6-11 (New International Version)
So when they met together, they asked him, "Lord, are you at this time going to restore the kingdom to Israel?" He said to them: "It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority. But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth." After he said this, he was taken up before their very eyes, and a cloud hid him from their sight. They were looking intently up into the sky as he was going, when suddenly two men dressed in white stood beside them. "Men of Galilee," they said, "why do you stand here looking into the sky? This same Jesus, who has been taken from you into heaven, will come back in the same way you have seen him go into heaven."


2nd Corinthians 13:11-13
Finally, brothers and sisters, goodbye. Put things in order, listen to my appeal, agree with one another, live in peace; and the God of love and peace will be with you. Greet one another with a holy kiss. All the saints greet you. The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, the love of God, and the communion of the Holy Spirit be with you all.


We are people who really like to honor graduation. There are graduations from high school, or college, or seminary. There is even graduation from pre-school, which I never quite understood. In each of these cases however, we recognize that something has been accomplished, that a part of something is finished. Sometimes, we can get caught up in the midst of the “completion” aspect of graduation that we miss the greater point, however – graduation isn’t really an ending so much as it is a beginning.

Think about it. How many of us, when we were in high school, thought about what life would be like “when I graduate.” It became this idealized dream of moving out of the house, away from our parents, to enjoy a life of non-stop fun. We could finally stop doing the subjects that we didn’t like, and start focusing only on what we wanted to. In this dream, we could see our life, in a sense, beginning at graduation. All of our plans were set to begin to be realized at that point.

Graduation from college may not have that same starry eyed nature to the world that we had in high school, but it is still a point of significance. Once I graduate I’ll have to finally get a real job and pay back these loans. I’ll have to buy a house, find a person to marry and start a family. To some, this is pressure, an anxiety that reality is waiting to slap you in the face the second you receive your diploma. To others, this feeling is exciting – finally, after years of study, we can put all of this hard work into practice, to do what we have set out to. Either way though, the clock starts ticking on all of those things the day we graduate. Again, graduation is an ending, but it is also a beginning.

These three passages that we have just read are all about endings and beginnings. The first two deal with the end of Jesus’ time with the disciples, as he gives to them his final words and then ascends into heaven. In Matthew, Jesus offers to the disciples words that have come to be known as “The Great Commission.” Jesus is telling the disciples, “Look, you can do this. I have taught you many things, and now you have graduated. You need to take what you have learned and share it with others, in word and in deed. YOU CAN DO IT. Don’t worry, I’ll help you.” The disciples have graduated.

The passage in Acts shows us the rest of the scene, after Jesus has ascended in to heaven, the disciples are still standing there waiting, as if they do not know what to do. Christ has just empowered them offering them the power of the Holy Spirit, and commissioning them to spread Christ’s Word to the ends of the earth. But instead of doing anything, instead of rushing out to begin living out Christ’s Great Commission, they are just standing there, as if they are unsure what they are suppose to do. It is here that two men dressed in white, who we can assume are angels, appear to prod the disciples into action. These men in white are direct and to the point:

“What are you looking at?? Why are you still standing here?”

The disciples, in the midst of this clear charge from Christ, are still uncertain; they still have doubts. They are still apprehensive about going out and answering that call. So they need two angels to show up and point them in the right direction.

This reminds me of the very end of the movie Ferris Bueller’s Day Off. At the very end of the all of the credits, Ferris comes onto the screen, looks right in to the camera, and says, “What are you still doing here? The movie is over. Go home!” That’s what I think of when I think of these angels in Acts chapter one. The disciples have work to do, and standing around waiting for Jesus to return is not it.

The last passage that we read was from the apostle Paul’s second letter to the church at Corinth, a church that he had founded, but was having an incredibly difficult time with. They were a church that was constantly struggling with what it means to be in community as a church Body, and how to serve Christ in the midst of their culture. Paul had written them several times to try to guide them to being true followers of Christ’s call on them as a community. They are so focused on only seeing their own problems, that they are missing the call of Christ. In a sense, the Corinthians are in the same place as the disciples, stuck staring at the wrong thing, ignoring what Christ is sending them to.

The passage that we read is Paul’s closing to them, reminding them of their call and of God’s presence with them. The words that Paul uses are the words that have become the basis for one of the most common structures of our benediction. The benediction in the church service isn’t a prayer, it isn’t a wrap up or a recap of that we talked about in the service. Just like graduation, the benediction is a beginning. We are being called out into the world by Christ, to spread the Gospel like the disciples, and to live in community and serve Christ, just as the Corinthians were called. Just as Paul is trying to reminded the Corinthians of this, the benediction should remind us of this call as well. It is not a closing, it is a sending. It is not saying “Goodbye for now, see you next week” but rather "Go! You have graduated – go out and do something with what you have learned."

We are a graduated people. Just as we expect high school and college graduates to take what they have learned and put it to use in their lives, we to are called as Christians to do the same thing.

The Great Commission is not an ending, it is a beginning.
The Benediction is not the ending, it is the beginning.
God is with us right now, God is with you right now.
Christ is calling us all out into the world.

Whether you know it or not, the Holy Spirit has equipped you with exactly what you need to answer Christ call, whether you are a teacher, a salesman at John Deere, a retail clerk, a new youth pastor, or a new high school graduate, God is going to use you.

God has a purpose for each and every one of us, beginning right here and now,
and it is not to stand around looking at the sky, waiting passively for whatever comes next.

The disciples didn’t get it at first. Christ was calling them to action, but all they could do was stand around looking toward the future without realizing the work that needed to be done in the here and now.

They were too busy looking at the end to see the beginning.

So…as you prepare to leave here, let me ask you...

what are you looking at?

Sunday, May 18, 2008

missed another one... Eddie Izzard video...

For Adrien's birthday, I surprised her by taking her on a trip to Chicago to see Eddie Izzard. After the show, we waited back in the alley behind the theater, and Eddie came out to see the fans and answered questions for about 15 minutes. It was awesome.

If you don't know who Eddie Izzard is, then this probably isn't very interesting.
If you want to get to know who he is, here is a "Lego version" of one of his funnier bits about the church of England from "Dressed to Kill," a show he did about ten years ago.

Cake or Death

Otherwise, enjoy...

Here are a few clips that I was able to get with my camera. The sound is a bit wonky, as the L kept going by. He weighs in on EU politics, some British car show called "Top Gear," Monty Python, US politics, wearing heels, and some other things that are harder to to understand. (The people in the crowd were kind of annoying...)

Eddie chats in the Alley 1


Eddie chats in the Alley 2

Friday, May 16, 2008

Missed one!

So I missed yesterday because it was Adrien's birthday, and I don't have much time now, but I'll make up for it...

Here's a quite funny clip in the mean time...

The Engineer's Guide to Cats

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Pondering...

Finally, brothers and sisters, good-by. Aim for perfection, listen to my appeal, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you.

Greet one another with a holy kiss. All the saints send their greetings.

May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all.


I'm in the midst of putting together a sermon on this for Sunday. It's from 2nd Corinthians 13:11-14. It's the last words that Paul says to this church that he's had a really difficult relationship with, but has tremendous love for. (That is not to draw comparisons to my relationship with the church that I have been working with.)

I'm just trying to get inside what this is saying. So I've been thinking a lot about this passage.



I have way too much on my mind, in addition to this, so I could use a prayer or two if you have got some.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

What's green and smells like fresh cut grass?

House search continues, unabated...

Knights of Cedonia still haunts me...

I spent much of today trying to organize home videos and mowing the lawn. I really like mowing the lawn. It's a chore, but it's one of those fortunate chores that, when you are done, you can look back and see exactly what you have done. Instant gratification. After some years being a teacher, and now heading into full time youth ministry, most times it's a bit harder to see what you have accomplished at the end of the day. The results are a bit more elusive... Plus, I can listen podcasts when I mow. It's harder to do that in the ministry or teaching.

In other news, American Idol is boring this season. Mah.

And lastly, I saw stumbled on this video today, and it's awesome:


3 year old explains Star Wars

(the answer to the subject line, by the way - grass).

Monday, May 12, 2008

Time is NOT on my side.

I'm not sure that time is my friend. I keep thinking that we are buddies, but then it goes and makes things difficult for me. For instance, I was planning on not having much to do this week, and even having not much to do this month. After a chock full March/April, May was to be my siesta. Yet here we are, nearly halfway through the month, and I haven't been able to relax much yet. The rest of the month is ominously filling up as well.

You are a jerk, Time. You tricked me. You win this round...



In other news, I have found a new favorite video game challenge:

In the patches of "relaxing" that I have been able to get to this month, I spent time playing Grand Theft Auto IV with my friend Braddison. Now before you start throwing virtual stones at me, let me explain a bit. GTA is clearly wrong on a lot of levels, but my friend Val found a far more challenging and virtuous way to play it. I have tried to obey all laws, traffic or otherwise. That means no killing, no speeding, stopping at traffic lights and stop signs, and paying the toll to cross into Manhattan. Ironically, the game will allow you to do all of this. Essentially, you are driving around town, listening to the radio. As you stop at traffic lights, people will honk and swear at you. It should be called "Virtual Drive Around New York." It sounds dumb, but it's actually incredibly hard.

Also on that note, I have yet to be able to beat "Knights of Cedonia" by Muse on Guitar Hero III, medium setting. That song haunts me. I have become a very passable guitar hero, or if not an all out "hero," at least a guitar "decorated civil servant." Yet "Knights of Cedonia" still refuses to yield. I don't have Guitar Hero III at home, so I simply have to keep trying each time I visit Brad's house. One day...

Lastly, here is a treat for all of you:


This has been my background on my desktop for the past few months. I usually change ever couple of weeks, but this one makes me smile every time I turn on my computer. I offer it to you so that you can have joy on your computer as well.

Here is my previous desktop, which to me looks like a Panda version of "The Ring," especially if you imagine this as the panda not laying down, but rather walking toward you down this long corridor, eating a baby panda on the way...















That's all for today.

Via con Dios.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

The Return of the Mac

First and foremost, I want to make this commitment, both to myself, and to those stragglers who wander on to this site from time to time:
I am going to try to post on this site every day for two weeks (at least).

Now is the perfect time to make such a commitment, especially as I have a relatively light few weeks ahead, compared both to what comes after and what has come before. So if you are frustrated (like I am) at the rather sporadic level of posting I have done over the past few months, welcome back. Hopefully I can stick to the commitment.

So here is a digest of the past month's haps...

- A and I accepted a call (position) at a church in Mooresville, North Carolina. We are both really excited for the move. The last month has been largely consumed with trying to lock down a house, and last week we traveled on down to NC to check out some. We found two that were awesome; one that was perfect, but has another buyer that will likely take it first, and the other is near perfect, but about 10-15 minutes outside of town. Mah. It's weird looking at these houses, because your brain is trying to grasp the fact that you could potentially be in this place for the next 5-10 years of your life. Anyway, that's still going... Add the stress of a June 15th start date in NC, and that makes the house search pretty high priority.

- Adrien got me a new iPod as a graduation present. She is awesome. It is awesome. That filled me with too much awesome to handle, and I dropped the iPod. I felt like I had dropped a baby. It seemd alright, but again, I feel as though I dropped a baby that now seems alright - you never know if this drop is going to have cause some hidden damage that will come back to haunt me in the future.

- My computer died (well, the fan died, rendering it useless), and I had to go back to the old iBook Macintosh that is a good 8 years old. That made me realize a few things. One, Macs are awesome, and I miss owning one as my primary machine. This sucker, despite having sat dormant in a closet for three years, and being purchased well over eight years ago, still runs like a genius. However, I have also discovered that technology has done a lot of things over tha past eight years, and I was now limited to what was essentially a sleek looking word processor. In a lot of ways, that made me realize that, for as much as I really appreciate and utilize my laptop (good old chunky Compaq), I really don't need it. All I need is a word processor. Anyway, I got the Compaq pack - it was still under warranty - and it worked like gold again, but the technicians for some reason put stupid Windows Vista back on it (I had painstakingly downgraded to the far better Windows XP). In the process of putting Vista back on it, they also erased the entire hard drive. Way to go, guys. Fortunately, I had backed everything up, but it was a tedious chore to load everything back on (and find all of the XP drivers for the hardware again). So I finally got it loaded up, back to normal last night, and then the plug somehow got frayed and starte sparking. Hooray. Fortunately, the warranty extends to the plug, so they are sending me a new one. It does however mean a few more days with the Mac Daddy / Daddy Mac. 12 GB hard drive and all. No wireless, system 10.1. Go for it!

- Lastly, I have apparently forgotten how to sleep again. I had insomnia in college, and any who have heard me talk about it will know that I remember it fondly, for whatever reason. I don't think that this is getting to that point again, but since I have had less rigor involved in my daily schedule this week, I have somehow decided that sleep is overrated. I have gotten an average of about 4 hours of sleep each night since Sunday. Not that I'm accomplishing anything real in that time. Mainly it's menial tasks, largely reloading stuff on the Compaq, loading stuff on the new iPod, etc. It's like 10pm hits and I suddenly lose all motivation to go to bed. We'll see how this develops...

Okay, that was a long one that wasn't all that flashy, but I was just getting up to speed. More to come tomorrow...

Welcome back.